Happy Birthday!

Have you met someone and had so many questions answered with little questions asked?

My reply?

prior to yesterday, i never had.

Yesterday? yes.

Yesterday the 15 of Feb was her birthday and she agreed to meet me for dinner.

I was so HAPPY!

we haven't been in contact for 1 year 7.5 months already.

I wanted to tell her so much,

so so much, like how I have been dreaming of her,

explaining to her what she thought was reality then, was NOT.

Well when we met, it was.. almost like we never broke up.

It was comfortable but from the accepting manner of how much time we were apart.

More like every single clock in the world waited for us to be together again.

I'm not sure if she feels the same, but if she does, my dear clocks, please keep it that way

till our hands meet again... please..?

I bought her a gift, a card, a flower.

The Gift

Issey Miyake, has always been my favorite brand while we were together.

A brand that was customized for her; gentle, comforting, feminine, soft and seductive!

The Card

I wrote like 5 drafts, shredded 3, double sided taped 2, pasted 1.

Nothing hardcore, mostly light hearted.

The Flower

I thought it'll be nice to let the flower grow with her for a good few days.

So a white and really young rose bud.

Will she keep the flower through its blossom and wither?

As much as I know its selfish, I sincerely want her to wait, to wait for a fine day.

When I wake up and return to her.

Well lets just keep it a thought, till tomorrow.

We ended with hug.

I really wanted to hold her longer, much much longer...

As long as my heart wanted.

But it'll be selfish for me to do so..

To whom it may concern, I still love you, I know so.

I'm sorry for not being able to be with you when you needed me most.

If the clocks turn backwards for us, will you accept my explaination?

Lets us be together again.. Fate..?

I miss you so so so much.

Yet another day without you.

Till then Passer by.

Goodbye,

-the Idiot who let her go.