I've made a silly decision 2 years 3 months ago.

A hasty decision that shackled me.

Its painful to have to ignore someone who loved me so much

Regrets?

Perhaps...

Thinking back.. There are many things I did which I really don't understand.

If I were given a second chance I'll do it correctly.

I'm sorry.

sometimes I wish she was you.

To you:

It hurts me to see you like this.

Please don't be selfish to yourself.

Remember you only live life once. Make it worth living.

& maybe someday our paths will cross again.

i miss you again..
what would we have been had we not parted?

.

I miss you so much...

why did we part?

In case you didn't know, i lost my virginity to you, yes... you.

& everyone else i told you about was a lie.

you were my first.

Do you know how much it hurts?

why did god create humans with different aptitude??!

why...?

why didn't you understand my priorities.

why didn't you understand the need for me to keep my guy friends?

why did we part?

i don't know.

its funny how we started, and the very same way, we ended.

I miss you.

At times i think we're drifters...

Happy Birthday!

Have you met someone and had so many questions answered with little questions asked?

My reply?

prior to yesterday, i never had.

Yesterday? yes.

Yesterday the 15 of Feb was her birthday and she agreed to meet me for dinner.

I was so HAPPY!

we haven't been in contact for 1 year 7.5 months already.

I wanted to tell her so much,

so so much, like how I have been dreaming of her,

explaining to her what she thought was reality then, was NOT.

Well when we met, it was.. almost like we never broke up.

It was comfortable but from the accepting manner of how much time we were apart.

More like every single clock in the world waited for us to be together again.

I'm not sure if she feels the same, but if she does, my dear clocks, please keep it that way

till our hands meet again... please..?

I bought her a gift, a card, a flower.

The Gift

Issey Miyake, has always been my favorite brand while we were together.

A brand that was customized for her; gentle, comforting, feminine, soft and seductive!

The Card

I wrote like 5 drafts, shredded 3, double sided taped 2, pasted 1.

Nothing hardcore, mostly light hearted.

The Flower

I thought it'll be nice to let the flower grow with her for a good few days.

So a white and really young rose bud.

Will she keep the flower through its blossom and wither?

As much as I know its selfish, I sincerely want her to wait, to wait for a fine day.

When I wake up and return to her.

Well lets just keep it a thought, till tomorrow.

We ended with hug.

I really wanted to hold her longer, much much longer...

As long as my heart wanted.

But it'll be selfish for me to do so..

To whom it may concern, I still love you, I know so.

I'm sorry for not being able to be with you when you needed me most.

If the clocks turn backwards for us, will you accept my explaination?

Lets us be together again.. Fate..?

I miss you so so so much.

Yet another day without you.

Till then Passer by.

Goodbye,

-the Idiot who let her go.

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Hello there stranger.

which ever path we have chosen lets not regret.
reminiscence, inevitable, but please help it remain only as hasty sigh.

Stranger, why must we be subjected to constant denial and regret?

Again.. I miss you.

will it survive?

im not sure if anyone does even rmb this url?

i don't really care anyway.. im going to say what i say.

assuming im in my own world,

yhy i really miss you.
if i could i would, turn back time, back to the time
where we first met, at the coffee shop.. rmb 608?

i've to admit, back then i fell for you, its crazy.
its abrupt, its fast, its insane. but i did.

well the first thing i remembered was that
you were so white, a glowing candle in my adolescence,
an angel.

you were never receptive towards conversations i make,

never really there. through out the two years that i

vaguely managed make you remember me.

It wasn't until sec 5, when i mixed with NEC again.

I dated you out with nurul shakina, to see fire works at

marina rmb?

guess what, that was a dare from NEC, to go out with you..

i went out you, and that supposedly unofficial date changed my life.

slowly.. i won your heart, your trust, your faith, your love, your embrace.

With me everywhere ((: rmb the times with joel and justina?

cassandra, ben, shakina, hiroshi, shah & wimin?

After all thats done, theres only one thing i can surely surely say...

I love you.

Remember how i always told you that there was one before you?

frankly, you were my first.

I was embarassed to be frank, did not know what i was doing...

and truth be told, i was afraid too... :p

its scary how time flies.

i don't care if you even remember this url or anyone related to me does or doesn't

im gonna say this.

&

i know its unfair to my current girlfriend.

I still miss you

I still dream of you

I've never tried as hard to be with anyone.

its like i never needed to.

Remember how you were always there for me?

when i was hungry, you'd fry me an egg with diced carrot.
(i SCREAMED at you for that, yes i still rmb!!)

thinking back, that was really sweet of you..

Sweety, I still got alot of things to learn,

only fate knows if you will be part of my lessons?

part of my dreams?

or the very essence on my life.

Good night hwee ying.
i REALLY really miss you.