will it survive?

im not sure if anyone does even rmb this url?

i don't really care anyway.. im going to say what i say.

assuming im in my own world,

yhy i really miss you.
if i could i would, turn back time, back to the time
where we first met, at the coffee shop.. rmb 608?

i've to admit, back then i fell for you, its crazy.
its abrupt, its fast, its insane. but i did.

well the first thing i remembered was that
you were so white, a glowing candle in my adolescence,
an angel.

you were never receptive towards conversations i make,

never really there. through out the two years that i

vaguely managed make you remember me.

It wasn't until sec 5, when i mixed with NEC again.

I dated you out with nurul shakina, to see fire works at

marina rmb?

guess what, that was a dare from NEC, to go out with you..

i went out you, and that supposedly unofficial date changed my life.

slowly.. i won your heart, your trust, your faith, your love, your embrace.

With me everywhere ((: rmb the times with joel and justina?

cassandra, ben, shakina, hiroshi, shah & wimin?

After all thats done, theres only one thing i can surely surely say...

I love you.

Remember how i always told you that there was one before you?

frankly, you were my first.

I was embarassed to be frank, did not know what i was doing...

and truth be told, i was afraid too... :p

its scary how time flies.

i don't care if you even remember this url or anyone related to me does or doesn't

im gonna say this.

&

i know its unfair to my current girlfriend.

I still miss you

I still dream of you

I've never tried as hard to be with anyone.

its like i never needed to.

Remember how you were always there for me?

when i was hungry, you'd fry me an egg with diced carrot.
(i SCREAMED at you for that, yes i still rmb!!)

thinking back, that was really sweet of you..

Sweety, I still got alot of things to learn,

only fate knows if you will be part of my lessons?

part of my dreams?

or the very essence on my life.

Good night hwee ying.
i REALLY really miss you.