how the truth sucks

hello fellow melancholic human beings!
yes, the truth sucks but i'm going to tell the truth, the truth is we all suck.
why is that?

beecuz everyone is actually wearing a facade. I mean who would choose to tell you what an asshole she/he was? Hiding the truth is an instinct; to protect oneself. The truth makes you vulnerable because it really damages. Civilization itself is a lie, to keep those above, on top.

and now i can't sleep after tossing in bed for like 100 hours(<-- another lie to prevent friends from knowing that i'm appearing offline) AND i'm STILL fighting with a stupid mosquito which has bitten me 4 times in the past 10 minutes.

i am so ready to pay 100$ for a LEGAL sedative, tranquilizer or relaxant. Should i get a pescription(SP) for erimine5?

say, am i an attention seeking whore or what!